Jewel Kilcher - flower

I Don't Care

Good-bye baby, I don’t think I’ll be seeing you again
Good-bye baby, we’ll say that we’re still friends
Even though I know I love nobody else
And even though I know, I say to myself
That this time I’m leaving and I know that we’re through and I don’t love you
And that I just don’t care

I’m just so tired of being another statistic on TV
The classic case of I love him, but he just don’t love me

So this time I’m going to be the one to say it’s the end
This time I’m gonna be my own best friend
And I’m going to save some love, some love for myself
I'll kiss you all serious, it might help
And that I just don’t care

I don’t care
So many times, I tried to tell myself
That this love would work, if I just gave up some more love for myself
I believed if I just quite my crying, you’d start your trying, leave your lying
But I believe if I just walked away, I could say
I don’t care
Don’t care

You were always the cool one, you stood by the backdoor
You said "You know, leaving sorta makes you look good"
But this time I swear it’s the best you’ll ever see of me

So this time I’m going to be the one to say it’s the end
This time I’m gonna be my own best friend
And I’m going to save some love, some love for myself
I’ll kiss you all serious in hell
And that I just don’t care

I don’t care
So many times, I tried to tell myself
That this love would work, if I just gave up some more love for myself
I believed if I just quite my crying, you’d start your trying, leave your lying
But I believe if I just walked away, I could say
I don’t care
Don’t care
So good-bye baby, I don’t think I’ll be seeing you again

I Hate Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day
Wish I had a sweetheart
It's Valentine's Day
Didn't even get a stinkin' card
It's Valentine's Day
I just have to say
I hate Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day
And I didn't get no chocolate
It's Valentine's Day
If I had a heart I'd hock it
It's Valentine's Day
All I have to say
I hate Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day
And I hope it finds you healthy
It's Valentine's Day
I'm glad your stinkin' girlfriend's wealthy
It's Valentine's Day
I just love to say
I hate fuckin' Valentine's Day

I Thought I Saw You Last Night

I'm not easily scared by things that go bump in the night
Theres not many things that give me a fright
I can walk down a lonely block
And not alot can make my old knees knock

But theres one thing that scares me the most
It's when I think I see a ghost
And I thought I saw you last night

Ive been lately thinking about oujia board
And maybe contacting souls seated by the lord
'Cause all the shadows on my street
Bring the sounds of shuffeling feet

But theres one thing that scares me the most
It's when I think I see a ghost
And I thought I saw you last night

Threw salt over my shoulder
I knocked on wood
Don't step on cracks
But it does no good
I drink bourbon to calm my nerves
Read an old book and chant some verse
Hold hot coals in the middle of my fists
Take advice from my exorcist
Hallelujah hail mary
Holy moly this is scary

For instance last night I went to a scary movie
And I tried real hard not to let it get to me
But I just kept looking over my shoulder
The wind got hands and I got colder

But theres one thing that scares me the most
Its when I think I see a ghost
And I thought I saw you last night
I'm not easily scared by things that go bump in the night

I'm Fading

It's K-Mart, the bathroom
I'm staring in the mirror
The green lights are bright
It makes the lines clearer
Where did the Angel go
Cigarette smoke's all that's left
I've traded in my wings for a string of pearls
And now the string is all I've left

The light bulbs burn
Some ones in the stall
Big white
Brick wall
Makes me feel small
And I take my shirt off
Looking for a glimpse of flesh
I peel back the concrete
I hope there's still some soil left

'Cuz I am fading
I am fading
I am fading away
I am fading Just like fairy tales
Hero loses faith
I am fading

The air smells like urine
It's getting hard to breathe
I could walk out that door
But no one really ever leaves
I take all my clothing off
Trying not to forget
Stupid things like
The color of urine
And the smell of stone when it's wet
And I am naked in the mirror
With a feather in my hand The lady comes out of the bathroom
Screaming, "Oh, Jesus!"
Like I was a man
And I ask her
"Hey, what happens to us
When we get old and in the way?"
And I guess she answered me
'Cuz they took me away

And I am fading
I am fading
I am fading away
I am fading
Just like fairy tales
The hero loses faith
And I can't remember
Why or when
I hope that I will remember again
'Cause I am fading
I'm fading

I'm Sensitive Intro

Okay, I gotta think about it. I was really bummed when I wrote this. Because it's funny, when you grow up in a place like Alaska it's so beautiful and it's really easy to have some faith, you know what I mean? And faith after all is what carries you through, like, the darkest of days. You just have to believe time will pass, somehow the tide will come back in and I won't feel so incredibly shitty tomorrow. And it's hard 'cause like people lose faith, you know, when you're surrounded by crime and murder and pollution everyday. But it's really what like makes everything okay. And I think if we could just be...
(Jewel starts talking to an audience member)
Shut up I'm talking. That was obnoxious girl. I was kidding. God, I'm insulting people. (laughter)
So anyway I just thought maybe if we could be surrounded in beauty we'd become what we see. 'Cause all we're told in the news is how evil we are and how racist we are and all these things.

I'm Sensitive (POY)

I was thinking that I might fly today
Just to disprove all the things that you say
It doesn't take a talent to be mean
You words can crush things that are unseen

So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way

You always tell me that it's impossible
To be respected, and be a girl
Why's it gotta be so complicated
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated

So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way

I was thinking, that it might do some good
If we robbed the cynics and took all their food
That way what they believe will have taken place
And we can give it people who have some faith

So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way

I have this theory, that if we're told we're bad
Then that's the only idea we'll ever have
But maybe if we are surrounded in beauty
Someday we will become what we see
'Cause anyone can start a conflict
It's harder yet to disregard it
I'd rather see the world from another angle
We are everyday angels
Be careful with me 'cause I'd like to stay that way

I've Got The Blues More Then You Do Blues

Grew up in the Mississippi delta
In a shotgun shack
Washboard for my pillow
'Til the tax man took that back
Moved out on my own
I was just twelve years old... Top that

You think you got the blues
Look at my life
I've got the blues more than you do blues

When I was an itty-bitty baby
I was my mama's only surviving son
She used my head as a washrag
I thought it was fun
Walked to school upway both ways
With no legs... Top that

You think you got the blues
Look at my life
I've got the blues more than you do blues

Got so drunk I couldn't find my way home
Had to have a blind man show me
When I finally did get there,
My own dog had disowned me
A woman in a bar just looks at me and coughed and said
"I don't even know you, but I wish you'd die off"... Top that

You think you got the blues
Look at my life
I've got the blues more than you do blues

If This Is What Love Is

Somewhere between right and wrong is a love song
It's tongue hits the target but its phone number is always wrong
It speaks through calluses of gentler things
It speaks of kindness
But I don't think you know what that word means
Your love is a bitter seed that only the blind can see
If this is what love is
Then I guess there's no love song left in me

Somewhere between right and wrong is reality
Justice and shame speak foolishly of impractical things
Your kisses are as kind as candles
Your hands are as giving as stone
Your mind is kind as Hitler's until night leaves you feeling alone
Your love is something I must do but never be
If this is what love is
Then I guess there's no love song left in me

I didn't mean to fall into darkness
It's just that I trip in the lights
'Cause aw man it's hard to see that clearly and not put up a fight
But I knew I then would break and not bend
Just look at this trouble I'm in
I need to realize
This is how the unhappy half dies

Somewhere between good and bad is every lie I have ever been told
They all come down but good deeds don't count it's what cards you hold
But I'm tired of your grey laughter
I am tired of your hungry eyes
This love is so rotten
It's startin' to attract flies
Your love is something that must do but never be
Its blade is made of jealousy and insecurity
Your love is a bitter seed that only the blind can see
If this is what love is
If this is what love is
Then I guess there's no love song left in me

Innocence Maintained (Spirit)

Ophelia drowned in the water
Crushed by her own weight
Hitler loved little blue eyed boys
And it drove him to hate
Birds always grow silent before the night descends
'Cause nature has a funny way of breaking what does not bend

A heroes torso built of steel and novocaine
His heart a bitter beat inside a bloodless frame
There was hole inside his soul a manicure could not fill
So he found himself a whore to love
While daisies choked in the window sill

We've made houses for hatred
It's time we make a place where
People's souls may be seen and made safe
We must be careful with each other these fragile flames
Innocence can't be lost it just needs to be maintained

A small town in Ohio, two boys are filled with violence
And night spreads its legs for hate and ignorance
We are given to a God to put our faith there in
But to be forgiven we must first believe in sin

We've made houses for hatred
It's time we make a place where
People's souls may be seen and made safe
We must be careful with each other these fragile flames
Innocence can't be lost it just needs to be maintained

I want to live bravely, and love without fear
I want always to feel the wings of grace near
We all will be Christed when we hear ourselves say
We are that to which we pray

We've made houses for hatred
It's time we make a place where
People's souls may be seen and made safe
We must be careful with each other these fragile flames
Innocence can't be lost it just needs to be maintained