Jewel Kilcher - flower

Barcelona (Spirit)

Barcelona
Where the winds all blew
And the churches don’t have windows, but the graveyards do
Me and my shadow are wrestling again
Look out stranger, there’s a dark cloud moving in

But if you could hear the voice in my heart it would tell you
I’m afraid I am alone
Won’t somebody please hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
Fly, let me fly, let me fly

Super paranoid,
I’m blending, I’m blurring,
I’m bleeding into the scenery
Loving someone else is always so much easier
But I hold myself hostage in the mirror

But If you could hear the voice in my heart it would tell you
I’m tired of feeling this way
God, won’t you please hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
Let me fly, let me fly, let me fly

I won’t be held down, I won’t be held back
I will lead with my faith
The red light has been following me
But don’t worry mother
It’s no longer my gravity
Hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me fly, let me fly, let me fly

Be Still My Little Heart

Gray sky
No one's out there
To help me find
My way home

And half a jar
Of salsa
Is in my fridge
It's been there weeks

But I'm afraid if I wish tonight
My lucky star will be out of sight
It's only when the moon is high
I start to miss you standing by
Oh, be still, my little heart

A thousand things
Fill each day
Grocery lists
? the ? car ?

Now crowded rooms
Make it easier
To forget
I'm alone

It's only when the moon is high
I start to miss you standing by
But I'm afraid if I wish tonight
My lucky star will be out of sight
Oh, be still, my little heart
Oh, be still, my little heart

Billy

I know little Billy from the small time town
Ma and Pa meant well but they just weren't around
But he would learn what little they had taught
They told him, Heaven is hard but hell is not

He remembers Papa's words before he died
He said, word hard son, you must change the tide
Before our people have liberation, you can never rest
On your shoulders, lies our future boy, so do your best
Do more than your best

Never forgot the burden of his father's words
He lost his own life and lived the world's
No one told Billy theres somethings one man just can't do
Takes time to forgive and equality to take more before it's through
Just takes time

But still Billy went down to the big time town
Hoping to find some justice there,
But God how it all seems cynical through the eyes of despair
He no longer saw in color, he only saw black and white
There were never people behind thses faces
Until he realized one man can't win
Can't win this fight

So Billy went back to small time town
He got a life and he settled down
He teaches children who never really thought
He told them, Heaven is hard and Hell is
Heaven is hard and hell is
Hell is not worth fighting for.

Boy Needs A Bike (Ride Away)

Pop works in the shop til eight
Mom's on the phone and she's kind of irate
Sally's doing sommersaults on the lawn
Pop slams open the front screen door
Just to scare mom
She says, "What the hell did you do that for?"
He washes his dirty hands in the sink
And things around the table are kind of rough
Mom says it's pa
Pa says, "The times are just tough"
And me and Sally don't say much of nothing at all
The garage door light brightens up the night
Pa always works on cars when he gets in a fight
As though he could figure out that woman by working on that
Old car
He said a car can cure any problem at all
Cause of looking at all them parts makes a fight look so small
But I wish he'd just put me and Sally in the backseat and
Drive us away
That's when he sits me down
He says he's gonna teach me about life
He said, "A man needs a car and a boy needs a bike"
I got my first taste of freedom beneath the light of the moon
But if it were me
I'd have the guts
I'd put to test those bolts and nuts
And I'd Ride Away so fast, so far
Ride Away... So fast, so far
Put away our tools
We go back inside
Mom feels left out and now she's starting to cry
I wonder if all girls are crazy this way
I wish pops would just get a spine
I said I know it's kind of small but you can borrow mine
He just smiled and said, "Your mom means well son"
Most times are good it's just some that are lean
But it's love that makes up for those times in between
He got a tear in his eye as he took mamma's hand
Said one day I'd understand
But if it were me
I'd have the guts
I'd put to test those bolts and nuts
And I'd Ride Away so far, so fast
Ride Away so fast so far
Ride Away

Breaking Up

Do not think it hurts me bad
It doesn't hurt me none
It does not mean anything
I'm fondling this gun
And I don't hurt that bad
And I don't miss you
I don't eat alone
Wishing I was eating with two
It's like a sad movie
They always get high ratings

In fact I feel like celebrating
I feel like celebrating

And do not think I ever thought that
This would really work
It was just sort of a casual thing
Like trying on a shirt
I don't sit home slone and stare
At your picture wishing that
You were still there
I never get lonely
In fact I'm probably masturbating

In fact I feel like celebrating
I feel like celebrating

Oh goody! Oh joy!
I'm finally free
I no longer have to sit through
Your mother's casserole recipes
Oh joy! Glee!
I'm finally free

Buttercup

Gee your mom looked like shit last night
Hope that tinker toy boyfriend tonks her right
Then again, I could never tell a fist fight from fun
Maybe I've never really known anyone

Just sat still and spit in the fire
I thought I might strangle you but I couldn't find a wire
You've never been the type to make your heart clear
Lest someone overhear

Words drown in your martini glass
Entire sentences slowly drunk or not
But before they slipped away I swore I coulda heard
Them say you wanted me, to be your buttercup
Say you need me to be your buttercup

The party reached a feverish pitch
Good time soldiers drunk and in a ditch
Infidelity a bomb that went off
That left the world to swerve and cough

Stepped over bodies strewn like shipwrecks
Love's last call, warning puke reflex
Faith is for that frozen few
That never met someone quite like you

Words drown in your martini glass
Entire sentences slowly drunk or not
But before they slipped away I swore I coulda heard
Them say you wanted me, to be your buttercup
Say you need me to be your buttercup

Fish don't know they're short, they just feel sideways
And words to you are just the same, they shy away

When legs and limbs are all tucked in
You pull me close to you come night
And I just like a fleshy fruit and hung from the bowl of your side
Your lips may not sell or say
What your eyes give away
You're sweet as pumpkin pie
I take the keys from your hand that stutters up
Let the night air sober you up
Driving home, you make me pull over
You press my hand gently as a four leaf clover

You say sweetheart, I'm a foolish man
I'm ornery and I'm stubborn like my coffee from a can
But without you I would shrivel up and die
Won't you be my
Won't you be my
Won't you be my
Words drown in your martini glass
Entire sentences slowly drunk or not
But before they slipped away I swore I coulda heard
Them say you wanted me, to be your buttercup
Say you need me to be your buttercup
Buttercup, your buttercup, ducks, shnucks, shlucks, shucks